CLOUD 9

WHAT A NIGHT LAST NIGHT.. IT WAS GIRL'S NIGHT AT MY HOME. WE WERE SUPRISED TO LEARN THAT ONE OF OUR GROUP OF LADIES IS WITH CHILD. IT WAS SUCH AN AMAZING MOMENT TO LEARN THAT. IT TOOK EVERYTHING IN ME NOT TO CRY WITH TEARS OF JOY. SHE IS A DEAR FRIEND AND AN AMAZING PERSON. HER AND HER HUSBAND ARE TWO OF THE GREATEST PEOPLE I KNOW. THEY ARE GOING TO BE AMAZING PARENTS.

I AM SO BLESSED THAT I HAVE AN AMAZING GROUP OF FRIENDS AND TO BE HONEST, THIS IS MY GROUP OF FRIENDS I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING SINCE I MOVED TO THIS AREA. I CAN NEVER IMAGINE NOT HAVING THEM ALL IN MY LIFE INCLUDING OUR FRIEND WHO MOVED TO TEXAS!

SO A TOAST TO ALL MY BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS-- I LOVE YOU ALL AND CONGRATS TO MAMA TO BE AND LIL BLUEBERRY!

Fresh Beginnings

Yesterday was a great day. I caught up with an old friend I hadn't talked too in a long time. I actually gave up on the friendship thinking things would never change with her. After I saw her yesterday and we caught up on many months of her life, I saw this new woman emerge. One with strength and conviction and change. She has come a long way and I am so happy to see it. I have regained my faith in her and do not expect to see her a lot but know that our friendship has made it through to the next level.

On to other matters, I have a lot of plans in the next few months. Developing a game plan for me and my bestie's business. I am starting to find my footing again after a lot of turmoil. I am starting to recover my confidence.

Whirlwind

What an amazing weekend I had with all my favorite women. We had the time of our life. It was almost a dream it went by so fast. You really don't realize how lucky you are to have the people you have in your life until you go away with them. If you can get along the whole time, you know you have it good and that your relationships are strong with those women.

I cannot say it enough- I am the luckiest lady in the world to be surrounded by strong, independent, beautiful women. With my husband, my dog, our future home on its way, and the women in my life who are my rock, I have it all. Not many people can feel that lucky so I just smile and send a toast out to the most wonderful women I have the privilege to call my best friends.

Life in Reverse

Sometimes I can be my own worst enemy. One of my major flaws is that I get jealous for no reason whatsoever. It makes me feel like less of a person. I don't know where I get that trait from. Perhaps it's from all the years where I got all the attention in the world from my dad and it raised my expectations for all others.

I feel that it is unfair that I have such a sour trait and I thought by now I would have outgrown it. I keep hoping it will diminish at some point to a meager flicker that comes and goes. I need to do a little more self exploration on this emotion.

I am grateful that I have so many emotions and that I can accept my flaws. I just hope to learn from them.

Besties BeWare

It's funny how sometimes you can fall out of sync with the ones you care about. You expect it with your partner, with your family, but when it comes to your friends, you never see it coming. My bestie and I fell out of our groove in the last week and I think it had to do with no time for our one on one time. I know it seems silly but it can happen. Its like with your partner or family- if you don't get a little one on one time with them, it can disturb the nature of things.

So don't forget to put in much needed time with your friends in a one on one setting. Do not think it always has to be in a group setting. I hope this helps anyone out there feeling annoyed, irritated, or frustrated with their friend and they cannot pinpoint why.

CLOTHING OPTIONAL

My girls and I were talking about clothing style this morning and what is seen as in or fashionable. What made this topic interesting to me is that magazines, starlets, and the in crowd seem to think they control the fashion world.

I would like to say that fashion is what you make it. Its what makes you feel sexy, independent, beautiful, alive. For me, sometimes I come off fashionally challenged and I just don't care. What I wear makes me feel good and that is all that should matter. I have had this attitude my whole life. Other people can think what they want and it doesn't affect me one way or another.

Your clothing should be your outlet to make you feel how you want to feel. I know I am only one person saying this but wear what makes you you!

A Sunny Disposition

Its always good to spend time with good friends. It reminds you to be happy and smile. I am so full of joy and happiness today. I know that this blog is all over the place but that is what makes it unique. You never know the direction of the day here.

Work has been good busy and I have had time to reflect on the next steps in my future. I am in the process of planning trips for my honey and I. I am also lucky to be going away with our best friends for the New Year. I feel like someone above is smiling on me again.

My advice for today: Never forget that the world could be crumbling around you, but remember someone always has it worse than you.

If you can grab onto that thoughtm you can make it through any life changing events.

Tides of Change

A new week and a clean slate to boot. I have chosen to take the high road in a lot of the outcomes in my life from that past few weeks. I feel a harmony at the core of my being. It feels good not be full of rage and anger that I was feeling over the last few weeks. I am learning a lot from what has come of my family and know that I will need to be a bigger person.

Exciting news in my career life with the changes that have occurred- I can now refocus on building the website for my family's business and one for my future business venture with my best gal.

I cannot wait to share these two websites with the world to show what we have to offer.