FRUSTRATION AT ITS PEAK

TODAY I MUST WRITE IN RED. THIS IS HOW I FEEL- LIKE I AM AT MY BOILING POINT. PEOPLE JUST NEED TO GET IT. HOW HARD IS IT TO JUST STEP BACK, REEVALUATE, AND THEN CARRY ON.
TO BE MORE HONEST, IT IS MEN WHO MAKE THE WORLD EXTREMELY DIFFICULT AT TIMES. THEY WANT TO DO AS LITTLE AS POSSIBLE. LOOK AT OUR STATE- IT IS IN SHAMBLES ALL DUE TO "MEN" WHO DON'T WANT TO TAKE THE INIATIVE AND WANT TO DO AS LITTLE AS POSSIBLE AND HOPE THE REST WORKS ITSELF OUT.

WOMEN ON THE OTHER HAND ARE GO GETTERS. WOMEN WORK HARD! THEY LOOK AT THE BOTTOM LINE AND ITS NO WONDER THE SCENE OF GOVERNMENT IS CHANGING TO A MORE FEMININE REGIME. WOMEN MAY BE THE MORE EMOTIONAL CREATURE BUT WITH EMOTION COMES THE AFTERMATH OF CLARITY AND REALIZATION. I THINK IF A WOMAN OR A TEAM OF WOMEN WERE TO LEAD THIS COUNTRY, OUR DEBT WOULD DECREASE DRAMATICALLY AND OUR WAY OF LIFE WOULD IMPROVE.

I KNOW, I KNOW-- I WRITE LIKE THIS BECAUSE I AM A WOMAN. HOWEVER, TO MY SKEPTICS, LOOK AT THE HISTORY BOOKS - THEY DON'T LIE!

Learning Curve

So I spent last night thinking about my life and about all the friends that have come into my life. I thought back to when I was a child and my impressionable years. I thought about all the good friends and all the friends who were just a friend at the moment. I thought about all the people who I thought were my friends. I used to believe that the more friends you had, the better a person you were. Then reality struck and I realized that real friends are not counted in numbers but who is really there for you through all your good and bad times. I am so lucky that I have found my true friends in the last couple years. I have friends from my high school days I talk to here and there via the web. I have friends who I met when I was in college who have become Internet friends. I have friends I met living around town who are still part of my life but are busy with their life's. Then there are those magical friends you experience everything with and you wake up every day thankful you have met them. Those are the friends you plan everything with, who are an integral part of your existence. I can say I am fortunate and love them. They are my reality and they are my family.

NEW IDEAS

I KNOW ITS GOING TO SOUND A BIT OFF TOPIC WITH ME BUT I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT HOW I CAN GET INVOLVED IN HELPING AUTISTIC CHILDREN. I HAVE HAD SOME EXPERIENCE WITH AUTISTIC PEOPLE IN THE PAST AND YOU CAN SEE HOW AMAZING THEY ARE. THEY JUST NEED PEOPLE TO BELIEVE IN THEM AND TO HELP THEM FIND THEIR WAY.

THE AREA I AM MOVING TO ACTUALLY HAS AN AUTISTIC CENTER NEARBY AND I AM GOING TO SEE IF I CAN DO ANYTHING TO HELP WHETHER IT IS VOLUNTEER WORK OR TO ACTUALLY TEACH. I WANT TO DO WHAT I CAN TO HELP THESE WONDERFUL PEOPLE INTEGRATE THEIR IDEAS WITH THE WORLD AROUND THEM.

Recap

Well its another beautiful day in California- not much to bitch about. Life is just grand at this point so today is all about talking about my ambitions. I have so many things I still want to accomplish in my life. Don't get me wrong, I am so blessed to have a great job, great friends, a great husband, my health. I just want to achieve more and not wake up one day having any regrets that I didn't do most of what I always wanted to.

These ambitions include starting a project, business, or company with my bestie. Between the two of us, we know we have what it takes to start something amazing. Our only issue is finding what it is because our time has been so limited to get it going. Once she is done with school, we can really focus on it. Another is to travel some more but this time with my husband. I want him to have a taste of Europe because that is somewhere I feel at home. I also want to teach and give back what I have been so lucky to get. I feel I have so much to offer young adults and I hope I can help change at least one person for the better.