Family Matters

It seems that I am unlucky in the sibling category. My mother's son-- that would also make him my brother, I suppose. Though we only share one parent and maybe that explains it. He has gone down the proverbial rabbit hole over the last year, though if I am to be completely honest, since he hit puberty. I wish I was the older sibling, that maybe i could have spotted his oncoming issues and had helped my family do something about it. Though if I am to be quite frank, I had my own trial and tribulations to deal with and he my brother was not on my mind as a "problem." I see the dark end approaching with him and I sure hope he finds his way to the light again. Otherwise I will have another chapter of my life close in a way I do not agree with.

LEARNING CURVE

After going to a big festival recently, I have come to learn that I am no longer in my 20s. 
It was like discovering a new planet. I no longer want to suffer in the heat to hear great music. I no longer have desire to use a restroom facility that has no plumbing. I am a woman- hear me roar and all that jazz. I like the finer things at this age. I feel I have earned my place in society and I don't want to revert to my younger self.

Chatting

When I work during the day, I think about what my day would be like if I was in an office with other co-workers. I spend my day lost in my thoughts when I am not busy which to most sounds great, but let me tell you, it is dangerous.
Your mind wanders, you lose focus, and you start to think about everything you want to do with your life and didn't. It spooks me and then I come back to reality.
I try filling my day with things to do but when it is slow, it is slow!
I am like most people, I surf the web, but you can only surf for so long.

My one thought that keeps crawling back into my forefront of my brain: it's time to go back to school and get even more educated!

A NEW AREA

Finally returning to my favorite pasttime-- blogging:).

The last couple of months have been a whirlwind. New home, new county, new beginnings.

One thing I miss most is not being able to see my friends all the time. I know we are all busy with life but the connections that have been made, time is always desired to just spend time together.

There is much love in our new home and whenever we fill it with our friends, it awakens the home into a warmer place.

I know this blog is confusing but these are feelings I had to reveal and this is the way I deal with the missing of my friends.

My next posts are going to be interesting. You will see.

TIME FOR UPDATES

It has been awhile since I wrote on here and today I felt like catching up on my thoughts.

I think I may make this blog more political.

So much has been happening in the news and I needed a forum to get my thoughts out in.

The oil spill in LA has been heartbreaking to say the least. It has flooded me with so many emotions. I have felt angry at times that big oil companies are able to do what they want because they have such a tight hold on our government. The safety cautions that they ignore is unforgivable. This also goes for coal companies. So many people have died over tragedies that were preventable. Where is that ok? When will these large conglomarates become responsible partners?

Now all I see is our beautiful oceans being overtaken by an oil slick that is unstoppable. Our beautiful planet is being abused because of corporate greed. Does anyone see anything wrong with this picture?

BIZZARE THINGS

SO AS OF LATE, I HAVE BEEN IN A PRETTY GOOD MOOD. LIFE IS MOVING ALONG AT A GOOD PACE AND CHANGES ARE ON THE HORIZON THAT ARE SCARY AND EXCITING. OUR FRIENDS HAVE BEEN SO SUPPORTIVE AND HAVE MADE THE TRANSITIONS APPROACHING EASIER TO HANDLE. I FEEL SO MANY THINGS THESE DAYS AND MOST OF THESE FEELINGS ARE GOOD AND RIGHT.

YET THERE ARE MOMENTS WHERE I STRESS OVER LITTLE ISSUES AND THEN OVER BIG ISSUES. I KNOW THINGS WILL HAPPEN IN THE ORDER THEY NEED TOO, I JUST WISH I HAD MORE POWER OVER THEM.

I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO ALL WHO ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.

THANK YOU AGAIN

FRUSTRATION AT ITS PEAK

TODAY I MUST WRITE IN RED. THIS IS HOW I FEEL- LIKE I AM AT MY BOILING POINT. PEOPLE JUST NEED TO GET IT. HOW HARD IS IT TO JUST STEP BACK, REEVALUATE, AND THEN CARRY ON.
TO BE MORE HONEST, IT IS MEN WHO MAKE THE WORLD EXTREMELY DIFFICULT AT TIMES. THEY WANT TO DO AS LITTLE AS POSSIBLE. LOOK AT OUR STATE- IT IS IN SHAMBLES ALL DUE TO "MEN" WHO DON'T WANT TO TAKE THE INIATIVE AND WANT TO DO AS LITTLE AS POSSIBLE AND HOPE THE REST WORKS ITSELF OUT.

WOMEN ON THE OTHER HAND ARE GO GETTERS. WOMEN WORK HARD! THEY LOOK AT THE BOTTOM LINE AND ITS NO WONDER THE SCENE OF GOVERNMENT IS CHANGING TO A MORE FEMININE REGIME. WOMEN MAY BE THE MORE EMOTIONAL CREATURE BUT WITH EMOTION COMES THE AFTERMATH OF CLARITY AND REALIZATION. I THINK IF A WOMAN OR A TEAM OF WOMEN WERE TO LEAD THIS COUNTRY, OUR DEBT WOULD DECREASE DRAMATICALLY AND OUR WAY OF LIFE WOULD IMPROVE.

I KNOW, I KNOW-- I WRITE LIKE THIS BECAUSE I AM A WOMAN. HOWEVER, TO MY SKEPTICS, LOOK AT THE HISTORY BOOKS - THEY DON'T LIE!